List Challenge Round 2? Audience Participation Please!

Granted I am not a Yank, but this did pop into my head. Good Old Uncle Sam.

I think I may do Round 2 of my Seven Day List Challenge that I did last year.  Here is a link to all 7 plus 1 days that I did.

Audience participation required here.  I would like to have people suggest lists that I should compile.  I do them in lists of 10, so having 7 people suggest 7 different lists would be the ideal scenario.  Any suggestions appreciated, and in the incredibly unlikely scenario that more than seven suggestions arise I will endevour to do them all, because I am a people pleaser.

Now it is over to you Netty.  Work your magic.

MMS

AMA: Ask Me Anything

I feel hot and bothered (not in the good way) and feel a little confused.  So what should I do? I should invite complete strangers to ask me questions about myself and I will attempt to answer them honestly.  Surely that seems like a good idea right?

Yep, so here we go.  This will be my second AMA and in truth I am expecting maybe 1 or 2 responses at absolute best.  I thought to myself  “who actually gives a damn and will ask you questions, you have a limited viewership, you do not advertise your blog and you are pretty boring in honesty.  Who gives a damn?!”

If I get some questions it will be a nice little ego boost, if not, well it shows I am writing this really just for me, which ultimately what I should be doing right? This is for me to purge and make sense, so reagrdless of whether people are reading or not this is my tool and I should use it as an implement for improvement rather than a crutch.

Done and done.  Ask me stuff, or don’t.

MMS

The Wants of My Mental Stream As At Wednesday June 26 2013

Why did I write that like the title of a Balance Sheet?

• I want to drink with my friends.
• I want to go to a club and dance until I am a ball of sweat.
• I want to laugh and be happy with people.
• I want my mothers mammogram result to be good.
• I want sex.
• I want to lavish someone with gifts.
• I want to do something that makes a difference to someone, even if it is a tiny thing.
• I want to scream at the top of my lungs.
• I want to be creative, but everything I write of late is crap, including what I have posted recently.
• I want to my tattoo to stop itching.
• I want to do more body modifications, but to be accepted in white collar industries I can’t.
• I want to sit on a swing in a park and not see druggies around.
• I want more than I have right now

Not writing feels weird.  I have blogged daily for so long now it feels odd not to write anything at all.  I am limiting myself to write only when I really need to, rather than updating on a daily basis, regardless of how banal my life may be.  At the moment my life is work, eat, sleep and days off filled with sleeping, eating and preparing to go back to work.  Once again I find myself needing something to look forward to, and there isn’t really anything on the horizon, not for a few years anyway.  No holiday, no trips, no events, nada.  I need a social life, hell, I just need a life.

MMS

Rant: Infidelity

I just don’t get it.  It might sound a little messed up coming from me being annoyed about the whole idea of being unfaithful, but let me make it very clear here.  I have never, ever cheated on a partner of mine.  I have come damn close, and I mean damn close, but I have never actually gone through with the act.

The idea that if you are in a monogamous relationship and you feel the need to go and find pleasure elsewhere is just baffling to me.  You are with someone, you are in a relationship which you have chosen to get into, and yet to you go and seek intimacy elsewhere?  Why would you do that? Maybe I am just being incredibly naive and narrow minded here, but if you are in a relationship with one person, you are faithful to that one person, right?  I am personally a 100% kind of guy.

I go in 100% when I am involved with someone.  No holding back, right in there and sticking it out.  It is how I am wired.  The moment I do not feel like I am 100% in a relationship I end it.  That is usually a very sharp break as well, removing all semblance of the person from my life as far as possible (with just enough to Facebook stalk obviously).  I find it cathartic to purge them all away.  I am getting off topic here.

If you are someone in a polyamourous or open relationship/marriage, then if you chose to attain intimacy outside of your relationship then it is acceptable, as you have chosen that lifestyle and it is consented by both parties.  If you chose to have an encounter where there are more than 2 people present and you consent then it is fine.  That is all ok because, if you hadn’t noticed. It. Was. Consented. Both parties agree to it being an acceptable term.

Cheating is not consented by both parties.  One goes behind the back of the other to get what they want and then go home back to the one they are supposed to be with and carry on.  Sure, there are occurrences where they are wracked with guilt and confess, but you should’t have damn well done it in the first place.  Excuses like “you had to be there”, or “they made me do it” (non rape situations here obviously), or “they seduced me” are utter tripe as far as I am concerned.

We are humans.  HUMANS! What separates us from animals is our intelligence.  We have the capability to show restraint and not act upon our base urges if we want to.  I can be hungry, but I don’t eat.  I can be thirsty, but I don’t drink. I can be angry to the point where I want to break a persons face in half with a meat cleaver but that doesn’t mean I am going to.  Self restraint is the mark of a human; the ability not not act upon our base instincts and chose whether or not to do something.

I don’t get how people do it.  I know plenty of people who have cheated.  One guy I know was unfaithful to his girlfriend every single time we went out.  I liked the guy, and I always had fun with him, but that aspect of his character I strongly disliked.  With him it was basically “I’m horny, I need a hook up”.  With others they have become emotionally estranged and a break up was already on the cards.  That’s the situation I was in once.  We broke up instead of one of us going and doing something we would regret.

I don’t expect to be liked particularly for writing this, nor do I expect people to agree.  I don’t really care too much about what other people think about this post.  I just had to get it out.  It has been on my mind since I woke up this morning.  Oh sweet irony, I couldn’t stop myself so I just had to write it.  I am such a hypocrite, with one breath saying we should all learn restraint, and with another giving into my own weakness.

Just clicked also I posted this yesterday.  I will admit she is being very seductive, and from the dialogue I guess he is in a relationship with another girl.  He should have got his backside up and got himself out of that situation.  Probably all up on my high horse here; if she was grinding all up on my junk and doing that I probably would have been pretty dumbstruck, but I would like to hope I would have walked away from it all.  If you didn’t think I was an a*sehole before, I bet you do now. Cheaters never prosper right??

MMS

What Is Most Important To You?

Who are the most important people to you?
I would say my brother is the most important person to me. Above my parents, my kid brother is the most important person to me. I would do (and have done) incredibly stupid things to keep him safe and in a secure environment.

What is your most valued possession(of monetary value)?
I would have to guess my laptop most likely, at around £400. Clothing wise would have to be my Ted Baker Suit at £300. I guess my university degree certificate could be on here too, about £28,000.

What is your most valued possession (of sentimental value)?
Probably the Bible I have next to my bed and a gold signet ring. I’m not religious but they are two things which have been left to me by a man who I call Uncle Peter. No one else gets called uncle or auntie by me, just him. He passed when I was very young but had a big influence on my mother and our family post divorce. The gold ring I wear every day is also of great sentimental value to me. (Will link here when I can)

What characteristic do you possess which you value most?
My honesty. It is one of the few characteristics I possess that I can say I am truly proud of. I can conceal the truth to an extent, but overall I am a bad liar and a terrible manipulator. That is a good thing as far as I am concerned. I prefer to be straight up and honest as far as I can be. Though a lie of omission is still a lie and I indulge in those on occasion, but mainly to protect people.

What characteristics do you value in others?
Honesty, trustworthyness, integrity, compassion. (Just me who thinks this sounds like a logo somewhere in Latin?)

Who is the most influential person on your life
It is going to massively inflate his ego but one of my friends is. He may be a bit of an annoyance to me at times, but ultimately he always has my best interests at heart and is always pushing me. You’re a good guy, even if I question some of the things you say at times.

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That was a little insight into me as a person. Hope you enjoyed it. If you would like to do it as well please do and let me know, I would be fascinated to see what your answers are, as would other readers I am sure. I just made those questions up as they seemed pertinent to my current thoughts.

Hope everyone is well out there,

PL&H
MMS

Question For You All

This is not some cry for help or anything sad and depressive like normal, but more a satisfaction of my curiosity.

What is your opinion on Manscaping??

For those who don’t know it is the trimming/general upkeep/removal of all hair in the gentleman region. I ask as I am curious if this is a common occurrence among men, and what women think of it/preferences. I’ve had conversations with guys about it and it was 50/50. Let’s put it to you Netty and see what you have to say.

PL&H
MMS

How Do You Deal With Being Ignored?

My personal reaction to being ignored varies between two extremes; go quiet or go loud.

When I go quiet I go basically silent to that person. I don’t communicate with them in any way whatsoever. The main problem that this reaction poses is that it affects my interaction with other people who are completely unrelated to the perpetrator. This leads to people becoming concerned as to why I have become quieter and more reserved than normal. I can’t speak for everyone else but when I go here my thoughts aren’t too positive, usually quite sad and melancholy. It tends to be that I write really soppy things when in this mood, and can be quite antisocial. I just want to be alone, even though being alone is probably the worst thing for me when I’m in this place.

Of the two reactions this is probably the best one. It is less violent, less destructive and considerably less burden on those around me. My introverted side becomes more pronounced and I just want to be alone, preferably in the dark, with just my lamp on and some form of mindless entertainment to occupy my main thoughts so my subconscious can process.

My other reaction is to get loud. I get lewd, crude and boisterous. Screaming out for attention and wanting to be noticed in effect, this is really not a great reaction either. When I am like this I tend to outwardly show massive energy and enthusiasm, usually my “crazy” side comes out. I jump, I bounce, I’m loud, I make dirty and inappropriate jokes, I act up basically. To my friends the party animal has arrived, but in my head I’m in an even darker place than when I’m quiet.

It is where SS comes out. If you don’t know what that stands for, probably a good thing. My thoughts go so far past being safe and sane they reach the bottom of the pit inside me. I write some of my darkest (and best I feel) work when I am in this place. Profanity is a regular occurrence, and trigger warnings are usually appropriate if I ever post those pieces online. This is where I am usually quicker to anger than normal. My patience becomes very thin and I have little tolerance for idiots, time wasters and show off attention seekers (how ironic).

Well that was maybe good for me to post, but probably not. Gives you a little more insight into me perhaps. Maybe just tells you more than you want to know. Either way let me know how you feel about being ignored. How do you react?

PL&H
MMS

Financially Boned

Is a selfless act selfless if the person is aware their actions are altruistic?

Yesterday my friend called me while I was at work. For the first time I picked up the phone because I felt I should. She has had her card cloned and was wiped out of cash. She called me to vent and to talk, but I offered her money before she even got to that part. She refused, I became incredibly assertive and she said she would take it and pay me back. Money is something that will be a theme in this post. I got her to text me her details and that night I transferred the cash across. I gave her more than she agreed with me so she could go out on a date she had planned before with this guy she likes, because she deserves to be happy, even if I am unsure of this guy and his motives/maturity.

This morning I woke up early to do some paperwork for work, but ended up for an hour on facebook/twitter/bbc news reading. When I got up I found mum downstairs and she looked worried so I asked her what was going on. She was worried about her credit card and the mortgage. I had no idea she had whacked the entire ticket for her flight for my grandmothers death/funeral on her card, but realistically it makes sense as where else was she going to get that kind of money? She was worried and I had flashbacks to being 15 and dealing with this again. 9 years and nothing has changed. I sat her down, looked at her bill and the disgusting interest rate on it. Then I told her to wait there. I went upstairs and pulled £600 out of my drawer and gave it to her (yes, I have cash that easily accessible).

She tried to say no but I said your interest rate will eat you alive, you should have told me sooner. Money and me have a fraught relationship, but ultimately I will give it all to my family if I have to. That was pretty much my entire savings and I have about £50 to last me until payday week after next after giving £750 in about 11 hours. My logic is that she can take that money and put it towards the next mortgage payment, or clear over 2/3rds of the debt on her card and breathe a little easier.

I live and breathe anger and money. If I could be paid to be angry and fucked up I would be a millionaire. I have a degree in accounting and finance, I have been dealing with my parents money problems since I was 15 and I have worked 60 hour weeks and 28 days in a row when I was at school to help in any way I could. That is just how I am. My family are more important than anything.

These two actions could be seen as good deeds (in retrospect to say selfless acts sounds incredibly pious and makes me look like a jackass). But is a good deed still good if you know you are doing it purposefully? Selfless people don’t think of themselves as selfless; it is a title given to them. I see myself as a good person who wants to help where I can, but I question whether the good I do now can balance out the bad that is inside my head (see some of the messed up stories I write).

I have to start work now, I hope there is some overtime available, I’m doing 6 day weeks currently. Hope everyone is ok

MMS

Run Down Of Stuff

Here we go, a run down of a few things.

As some of you may or may not know on Saturday it was my Birthday.  I wrote this post about not celebrating here.  I was on the early shift, so was up at 4 and worked until 3pm, where I went home, had a nap then went out for dinner with the family.  I had steak and it was delicious.  I then went and met a few friends at the pub and had a couple of brandies in celebration, but didn’t tell anyone it was my birthday, but a few knew by being friends with me on Facebook.  One person I did not want to know found out and he bought me several shots of sambucca (I can’t stand aniseed flavoured anything) which I had due to peer pressure and not wasting alcohol.  We moved onto another pub where I saw a whole bunch of other people, as well as an old university friend and we had a good catch up and lamented how we should talk more.  2 brandies turned into around 10 a 2 shots turned into about 6 and by 11:30 I called it an evening and walked home as I had to work in the morning.  It was lovely to see everyone, but I had work so I couldn’t go in battered.

Sunday I went to work on the late and got in feeling a little rough and tired, but passable.  They day was dull and uneventful and I closed up tired, but ok.  I went home and went immediately to bed as I was doing the early the following morning.  Yes I was doing a late-to-early, yes I seem to do nothing but work and sleep and drink, yes I lead an unfufilling and dull life.

Monday morning I opened and had a good one, meeting my sales target within 2 hours which makes my day a little easier but still means I try so that if I have a bad day later in the week I have a little cushion.  I replied to all the well wishes I got on Facebook and a friend of mine skyped me.

I was tired already from the weekend and only keeping myself wake so that I could sleep at a good time in the night so I didn’t wake up in the middle of it, so I was already a little, ok a lot grumpy, but I managed to convince him I wasn’t too bad.  He is a good guy and I felt bad because there had been a bit of drama when we last saw each other, completely not to do with us, but we had to deal with the fallout and I felt bad as I got him to come for a good time and he ended up not having that.  What bugged me is that within 120 seconds of us talking on Skype he mentioned my ex girlfriend.  Now, I didn’t ask for information, he volunteered it, and in honesty I should have expected it as he is one of the few links between her and I, but I didn’t expect it in a way as well.  She is well and moving forward at a good speed in her life and I am happy for her, but even talking about her has thrown me off kilter.  Add to the fact that I was tired and well it didn’t make me the happiest bunny in the hutch.

To make it worse when I went to sleep I woke up at 4am.  That’s right, this idiot forgot to turn his alarm off ON HIS DAY OFF!!! Genius, I know right?  Today my brother has been ill, I got shouted at for having biscuits in my room, I have felt tired, stupid, the job application I was really hoping for a reply from has not sent me one by their deadline to respond and generally not in a fantastic mood.  I tried releases of pretending to be happy and watching happy things and talking to a few friends, but that came up empty.  Now I just feel like blogging isn’t working for me anymore either.  That is not a good thing.  I guess we will just see what we see

PL&H

MMS

Your Turn!

A lovely guy at the blog Brandon Bored has tagged me in a game of “It”. When I was between 5-9 I loved this game because I was pretty nippy, but after that I just became a fatty and didn’t lose any weight until about 15 when I got braces and became paranoid about food in my teeth. Here are the rules of this game

1. Post the rules.….
2. Post a photo of yourself and eleven random facts about you.
3. Answer the questions given to you in the tagger’s post.
4. Create eleven new questions and tag new people to answer them.
5. Go to their blog/twitter and let them know they have been tagged.

Well number two is only partially happening.  I will not be posting a photo of myself on here as I am a little paranoid lately, especially after the views thing here.  I think I have that under control now, but still no to the photo.  The facts however I shall oblige with.

1. I have been craving a cupcake for the last few days.  This is partially from having a “2 Broke Girls” marathon and every other word is cupcake on that show.
2. I had meatballs for dinner and they were absolutely delicious.  I am a big fan of meat of all varieties, just not man meat.
3. I have been camping only once in my life
4. I own a BlackBerry, but really want to upgrade to the Galaxy S4 when it comes out (if I can afford it)
5. I have had my phone stolen from me when I was 15.  It was a Nokia 8210 (the really tiny one).  I LOVED THAT PHONE!
6. I used to play basketball for my school team…until everyone became super tall/better than me.
7. I have never ever broken a bone in my body
8. I once punched a friend of mine so hard in the jaw he actually flew backwards and landed flat on my bed.
9. I wish I had super pale skin.  I think it looks so cool (especially if I was a girl, I’d wear red lipstick ALL THE TIME)
10. I have a Springer Spaniel who is 13.  She is the cutest thing.
11. I have not flown anywhere since 2008

Questions from Mr Brandon:

1. When you make a cup of tea, do you add the water first or the milk?  I actually add the teabag first…but then hot water.

2. Please name at least one ‘guilty secret’ within your CD or music collection.  Party In The USA – Miley Cyrus (CRINGE but I like it)

3. What was the last photograph you took? **looks through phone** oh it was my penis..JOKE! It was a picture of some teeth whitening strips.

4. If you could be anywhere right now, where would it be? Giving someone who needs a big cuddle one.

5. What’s your favourite meal? I am a big fan of Italian; probably some sort of calzone, or calamari

6. Do you prefer to cook or prepare it or have someone do that for you? I don’t mind in honesty, I am happy cooking for people or being cooked for.

7. If you could perform live with any artist or act (music or otherwise), who would it be? Dead, Jimi Hendrix.  Alive, Eric Clapton or Jay Z or Skepta

8. How long do you imagine you’ll continue maintaining and using your blog?  No clue in honesty, but I don’t see me doing this in 5 years if I am honest.

9. When you eat an apple, do you also eat the core? I have done, but I do not make a habit of it.

10. Do you believe there is life on other planets? Yes, absolutely

11. Are you an apostrophe pedant? Not too much so, but I do like to use them when using don’t and words like that. Possessive I am never very good with.

Here are MY 11 QUESTIONS!!

1. If you could slap any one celebrity in the face, who would it be?
2. Do you believe in God?
3. If a person offered you £1 million to have sex with them and no one would ever know, no strings attached, would you do it?
4. Can you do tongue twisters like Peter Piper or She Sells Sea Shells?
5. If you could change one thing about your physical appearance would would it be?
6. Which of the Seven Deadly Sins do you think you indulge in the most?
7. Proudest moment?
8. Favourite toy as a child?
9. Would you rather get a piercing or get a tattoo? Why?
10. How many vowels are in your full name? (inc letters after it if you have a degree/masters/phd/professional qualification)
11. Most views in one day on your blog?

People Tagged.

Ellie

Juliet

LauGraEva

SuperNerd

GriefHappens

LaurennJade

 

Enjoy People

PL&H

MMS