I just visited my grandparents graves. This is the first time in 10 years I have been here, and the first time I have seen either of their graves.
I stood there with my aunt and uncle as they talked to the granite. They were talking to a grave. I’ve talked to inanimate objects but I have no words.
I had no words. None. Nothing. I couldn’t speak. I just feel like there is a hole.
We have about 20 people on the house and I have nothing to say. I just want to be alone. But I can’t do that.
I forgot that they were here. I forgot. How shit am I?