I will state at the top here that I am going to be away from my blog for the next two weeks. As of tomorrow evening I will be flying out of the country to go to my cousins wedding. It is going to be a very long flight as they live a long way away. I am flying out 6 days before before the wedding because I will have to do lots of things. We will all be flying back 7 days after as we have lots to do afterwards too. I am going with my mum, two aunts and my uncle. As my cousin has no brothers I will represent her brother at the wedding. My uncle is the patriarch of the family, and I am the second so I have a lot of responsibilities which I will have to attend to while out there. There is also talk of me possibly getting a job in the country as well as we have connected family in the area. So do not panic at the lack of posts, I have not topped myself yet, I am just away.
I will try and write a post tomorrow before I fly, and will try and write something while I am out there, but otherwise I will not be able to post at all while out there as of a) time constraints, and b) I do not know when I will have private access to the internet to be able to write.
On to today. Today I have been non stop. I did not take a break during my 11 hours and was on my feet for all of it. I was on the phone for more time than I would like fielding calls every 15 minutes or so, as well as selling well over half of today’s sales. Guess what being non stop has meant. I have pushed myself. I did more than I absolutely should have and do you know what that has resulted in. You guessed it, my knee is is bloody agony. I only had access to paracetamol and cocodamol so have popped some of those and strapped my knee to keep it warm but it is killing.
It is so incredibly annoying not being able to go full tilt. That is how I work. I go hard or go home when it comes to my commitments. I carry and run places and get stuff done, but having to limp around and not being able to lift boxed because when I do my knee gives way makes me feel like a bloody invalid. I feel so useless so I tried to keep going with everything else and get as much done as I could of everything else that needed doing. I want to be healed up and better so I can go about my job and get everything done. I will be moving to another area with my job (same locale though), but I feel ominously about my new team. I have a gut feeling that there will be a severe lack of cohesion. That is going to lead to a great deal of tension, as well as my workload skyrocketing even higher than it will be when I get back anyway.
I feel tired, I am in pain, I do not really want to fly out of the country, I do not really want to do everything I have to abroad, I feel like I am useless at my job, I have to bend at the waist like a slut to pick things up as my knee is murder, I hit my hand really hard on a door and my eyes are so bloodshot I look like I have smoked a 20 bag. I need a holiday, which this will not be. I need time to recharge. I need someone to look after me for a change rather than me sorting everyone else out.