You ever feel do something without thinking, assuming that you are capable and then realising you are not?
Guess what I just did. Without thinking I heard something upstairs so I went to run up them to find out what it was.
BIG F*CKING MISTAKE
My leg hurts like a b*tch now. You know how frustrating that is. I know I can run upstairs. I walk faster than 98% of people I know. I rush around constantly. Day before yesterday I tried to turn on the ball of my left foot and it twisted my knee just a tiny bit. Proceed to fall onto the bed as pain shoots through my thigh and my kneecap shoots with pain under it.
I am getting really tired of this not being at full capacity bullcrap that is going on with my body. I want to be back able to lift things using my legs. I want to be able to walk at my normal pace and leave people in my dust. I want to be able to go up stairs three at a time. I want to be able to go up the stairs next to the escalators and reach the top before them because they are too slow and I am faster than them.
Stupid fragging car hitting me. Stupid driver not stopping at a junction. Stupid injury. Stupid world.
I go back to work tomorrow because I told work I will be ok to go back as long as I am not straining too hard. Stockroom manager promotion – can’t do heavy lifting or walk lots. GREAT! SICK ONE YEAH?!
I am getting really fed up of this. Today it will have been 1 week since it happened. Why the hell can I not just heal already and get the frag back on with my life.