Hey there. I had a long conversation with a friend last night and among the subjects brought up was the change in my blog.
I used to really live up to the title “My Mental Stream” because that was what I did. I wrote what as on my mind, I wrote out my heart and I wrote to make more sense of what was going on. I cannot read those old posts back currently because they evoke some memories that I am trying to avoid.
My recent style on here is more creative writing. I post music and videos I like on here rather than Facebook as I don’t want to be the guy spamming his friends and taking up their feed. This blog is my space and I feel sharing on here is easier.
Change is inevitable, this much I know is certain in the world. I would say that my mental state has improved vastly over the time I have been blogging, and that is very positive. I would say my blog has become a different one is a negative for balance’s sake, but it is not negative, it is a progression.
I write more and more about myself on here, but not in the sense of my current predicaments, more as a journal. I write about the past, not what is bugging me and writing out to purge and process. That is not so bad, but that is more of a change in my style.
I have changed a great deal in my time writing, I certainly have become more creative than I have ever been, but I have also become a little more stable. Sure I still have down beats, and they can be pretty damn awful, but I have more up beats and they are better. I have met some wonderful people on here, the majority of which are women. (we both made this observation. I get the impression the majority of bloggers are female and American from my experience)
I am unsure currently what I want to do right here. I have reached a crossroads. I can:
A) go back to my old style and write more as I used to; “streaming” as it were. (If I did this, would it class as regression?? I think so and that’s bad)
B) carry on as I am (but I don’t think I am going to do that as something is off. It’s not just my friend who has noticed, I have too)
C) Take a break from blogging.
This may not be an ideal time to take option C right now, with my new job starting and things changing once more. Change can be good and bad and I think I will want to write, but I don’t know.
I will say this, my blog has changed and so have I. It is not that this is coming to an end, which it may or may not be, but what I am saying is that I think I might take a little break away from this.
Ironic that I say I have not done a stream, yet here I am, streaming. I’m doing this partially as an explanation to people who actually read my blog regularly as well. This way you know why and don’t worry if I disappear from the bloggosphere.
This isn’t a goodbye just yet, this is a serious consideration point for me. I will get back to you with what I decide, because I can’t just leave, even temporarily, without saying goodbye.
Hope all are well. Sorry for the confusion.