Another Great Gym Session x2!

Yesterday I went to the gym and I decided today I wanted to push myself further than normal on the bike.  I did my warm up (1 Km on the treadmill) then hopped over to the bike to set myself a challenge.  My personal best up to that point had been 15 Km and I was very proud to have been able to do that.  Yesterday I smashed that and went and did 20 Km, and not only that but I managed to keep my pace up the entire time at around 28Km/h which really made me happy.  It is normal for me to go too hard to start with and then have to slow down to that I am make my final goal, but this time I paced myself better and maintained I high average speed, while still beating my previous record.  I would be lying if I said I wasn’t sweating buckets while doing this, and it felt odd for me to be on the bike for around 40 minutes, but my gosh it was worth it! The feeling of satisfaction, coupled with the burn (I really love it! I don’t know whether this makes me odd or not but I really like it!) made me feel like a champion.  Post cycling I went and did my usual circuit on the machines, working on my back, shoulders and abdominals.

Today I was feeling very angry, frustrated and annoyed at some new information I had just got and I needed to get this aggression out of my system before it became self destructive.  I knew that being alone in my room would be counterproductive so I decided to walk to the gym and get exercise on.  This was the best idea I have had today yet.  I got there and got changed, and because of my anger I went hard.  I jumped on the treadmill and instead of my normal 1k, I only did 500m, but I sprinted it.  In retrospect this is probably a bad idea as I could potentially have hurt myself as I did not warm up or stretch in any way, but I did it and it felt good to feel out of breath.  Then I went on the bike and pumped out a 10K with an average of 35Km/h and that felt fantastic.  The feeling of powering through your barriers and finding your body is more capable than you know is so satisfying, it is a rush.

Chemically I think that exercise releases endorphins, which are the happy hormone.  I knew exercise makes you feel good but I never really sat down and thought about how good it really makes me feel. It makes me feel alive, it makes me feel powerful, it makes me feel unstoppable…until I run out of puff! I love going to the gym, it makes me feel so good about myself, now if I could afford to eat as well as I would like to and the things that I should, I would be a buffed up monster in no time.

Seven Deadly Sins Challenge Day 6: Envy

Envy is another sin I can relate to.  Envy of someone else’s possessions, whether that be someone has a nicer car than you, or someone’s position in life; a person being born in to a very wealthy family, is all very normal in my opinion. Envy is to want another person’s possessions, and wish them misfortune because of it.

People will always want what they cannot have.  I know I certainly want many things which I do not have in my life right now, but I know in the future I one day will own them.  Envy is more associated with wanting material objects that someone else has, but I think envy over the intangible possessions of an individual can be just as powerful.  People always want newer and nicer things, or bigger and better things, and when we see others with them; it is especially common in British culture, put people down for having something better than you.  Say someone got a new car, people would mock that individual saying things like “oh is that to make up for your lack of hardware downstairs?” or “overcompensating much” or even “yeah well, it doesn’t look that great and you look stupid in it as well”.  The put-down culture is fairly normal here, whereas in other places, success of something like that would be celebrated as it shows that yes, your hard work has paid off and yes, you deserve your success as you have worked for it.

Envy of intangible possessions, such as the fact that someone is in love, or perhaps that someone has found peace and is no longer in emotional turmoil, is just as valid a form of envy as tangible possession envy.  I think to want things such as to be loved and to be wanted are important to individuals, as we all want to feel that way, but I did study motivational theory, so it is building on what I have learnt while studying.

With relation to me, I am envious of people having possessions that I do not have, but I do not wish them ill because of it.  I do not necessarily agree with the fact that Kim Kardashian has all the money she has, especially where her “fame” is originally derived from, the same applies to many artists who I may not like their music, but they entertain others.  They have got theirs through their methods, and so I will get mine through my own methods.  My envy will be for those who are super rich, but i know that in my future I will get everything I need, and hopefully a little more of what I would like as well.